1.27.2010

Ode to my mother, the prettiest soul in the universe

"Got to get back to the land and set my soul free" ~CSNY

I dont really know where to begin. So many of you already know about my mom, some of you dont, some of you knew her (lucky you), most of you didnt. My mom was the type of person that never met anyone who she did not walk away from calling a friend. She was kind and giving to everyone, no matter who you were. She touched so many peoples lives through just being herself, and I dont think she ever really knew that. She was just beautiful.

For those of you who are newer to my blog, 2 years ago my mom passed away from breast cancer. January 25th, 2008. For most of the day on the 25th (two days ago) I but it in the back of my mind. By the end of the day I was relieved that I did not think about it much. But the day after and today it is prominent on my mind.

I wish so badly I could call her up tonite and tell her that I just sold my first handmade dress! Although Im sure she knows because the girl who bought it decided to think about it last night, and then she dreamt about it, so Im sure that was my momma poking herself in her dreams! :)

I wish I would dream about her again.

I am going to hold it all back so this is not a sad post.

I just wanted to share a bit of my mom with you guys, for without her I would not be anything that I am today. She was my best friend, my soul mate, and my greatest teacher.

These photos are from a huge framed collage I did for her service, I keep it on top of her dresser I know have in my bedroom, so I see it before I go to sleep each night.

I think if you click on the images you can see them bigger in another window.

You will see that she has alot of sillyness in her, and so much about family.
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In this photo:
eating snow when I was 2
her holding my brother's baby during her last xmas
me hugging her right after getting married
her on the beach when she was young
me and her on my graduation

In this photo:
her high school photo
when she lost her hair from chemotherapy
one of her funny halloween costumes
her and her 2 best friends on the beach when they were my age

In this photo:
me and her in her garden
her and my nanna
her and my brother for halloween
her chemo head again
her in her silly hat on the beach
her flying a kite
her as my daisies leader in our hula outfits
her putting cookies over her missing boobs
her hands while she was sick

In this photo:
her and her friends again
me kissing her cheek
me and her posing silly for the camera
Here is a snip it of our life. I miss it. I would give anything for her to show me all the plants in her garden again. She would take me out to it every day almost, she was so excited about her things growing. I wish I would have paid more attention.

To all of my friends, dont ever take your mother for granted, remember the little things, take alot of photos.

I dont have any regrets, dont get me wrong, fortunately we had the best relationship, I know most people never come close to. She is in my soul.

And now I see her everytime I look at the moon or stars.

I love you mom.

Peace,
Laura



15 comments:

  1. teared up.... wow.
    your mother sounds amazing.... I will be sure to give my mom a big hug tomorrow when i see her. thank you for this gentle reminder. Sending you a big hug and may Gods peace surround you every time you think of your Mom.

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  2. Hi! I tagged you if you want to go to my blog and see the rules and play along.

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  3. wow-

    she was beautiful.. I see you in her face. Beautiful post..

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  4. I just started to cry!!! Thinking of you Laura... and sending you much, much love!!! xo She was a beautiful woman and this was a beautiful post!!

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  5. That was a beautiful post, I could almost feel the love and admiration you feel for your mother! My mom is a survivor of breast cancer for over 12 years now and last year they found a lump on her remaining breast and had to have a lumpectomy. My mom is my HERO, I don't know what I would do without her in my life and I make sure and tell her that everyday we talk(and we talk everyday)! I know how blessed I am to have her and reading this post makes me want to call her just to say goodnight mom, I love you! Thank you for sharing this story of your mother, she sounds like she was an amazing person and I am sure that she knew and still knows that she has an amazing daughter! You are beautiful in so many ways, take care!
    xoxo~Meg

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  6. you enlighten us...
    the small things are important
    because they're the times we
    will remember. thanks!

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  7. Lovely Laura! Your mom was a beautiful woman. You could see how kind and loving she was in all these photos. Thanks for posting this. I know it was hard for you!

    And congrats on selling your first dress. That dress was amazing by the way!!
    XOXO

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  8. i love you laura! and i know your mum is proud of you. i am sorry that i never knew her, but i imagine she shines through you every day and i feel that i can see much of what she was in what you are becoming. <3

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  9. She is an amazing woman as you are an amazing daughter, my love for the both of you <3

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  10. thank you to everyone who left such sweet loving comments on this post, it meant alot to me. I like sharing these parts of myself because of the love you all show to it, thank you.

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  11. This is so beautiful, Laura! I love knowing more about her. I can just tell she was such an amazing woman!!! I love that pic of you kissing her cheek from behind. Precious memories!!! I can tell she's such an amazing woman because of how amazing her daughter is. Her light is still shining. Love ya, girl!!! Big hugs to you! xo

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  12. I don't know how to read through this post without crying. I've read through it three times and cried every time. Thank you for sharing a piece of your mom with us and the love you both shared. You look so much like her. And thank you for the reminder to love the ones we have fiercely.

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  13. I'm overwhelmed by your post. I really wish I could spend time with my mom but unfortunately she's an ocean away from me. You make me want to just go on a plain to be able to hug her and tell her how much I love her. She's my best friend and I don't know what would I do without her. Thanks god we email eachother every day.
    This post was a beautiful reminder to show our love to our family.
    Thank you so much!!

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Thank you so much for your sweet comments!