On monday, I went to yoga, for the second week in a row. Can I just say for a moment, Im proud of myself. Mini triumph! Of course I owe it all to the help of a friend, by attending with me, but still. Me and my mom used to go to this yoga class together every week for a few years, and I took about 2 years away from it... I am so so so glad I found myself back in this class. It has been a catalyst for my healing period. I drove myself there, it was wet morning, and I listened to an old tape I found in my car. Its part of an 8 tape series on enlightenment, with the most calming speaker. I headed the words of his wisdom as I drove along to class, soaking in the words I needed to hear. Funny how the world works at times. And once I get to class, my instructor seems to just continue on with the same needed words, on the same subject, reading from his books. There was a clear message in the air. The yoga was amazing and fully worked every muscle in my body, including ones I did not know I had. Then, as we had our layout at the end of class, he covered our eyes with moist sage scented cloths. It was instantly calming and stimulated happiness. Instead of closing my eyes, I laid there with them wide awake. The cloth was white, and with the flourescent lights from above shining through, it felt as if I was engulfed in a serene cloud like space. I stayed there for a while and pondered. I felt the urge to talk to my teacher after class and ask him for an insightful book list to help me along my path of healing. We had a loving heart to heart, and he lent me his book right out of his bag. Its called Wisdom of the Ages by Wayne Dyer. If you havent read this yet, I suggest you do. Im only two stories in and I already feel a profound movement within myself from it. Amazing. It has writings from 60 profound individuals from all of history. Very insightful. I feel like the people I have talked to in the past few days have all been leading me towards this amazing path of healing. Ive had a few tears and felt some stings in my heart, but allowing myself to open and surrender to it is just what I need right now. Im sort of in my own little world at the moment.
On another note, I absolutely cannot believe that November is already half way over??? What the heck? We were in starbucks today and christmas music was decking the halls all around us. Im just not ready, but Im embracing the fact that this year is just going to be a bit shy of organized and prepared for. And that has just got to be okay. Tonite, I placed my first christmas gift order, so I feel a bit a relieved. I just might put my shops on vaca for a bit while I get some things done in that respect...
My boy just got home, so its time to put my fingers to rest. (btw, I have the most amazing husband in all the land)... love. this. boy.