A sign of peace...

Yesterday I had a moment of peace.  And to fully understand, I must start from a few weeks ago...

Since James and I have moved into our new home, we have been seeing roadrunners everywhere.  I look out my window, and Ill see one sitting on a rock.  Look out my backyard and one will be in the yard.  We drive to town, and one darts in front of us.  All of the time.  It became apparent to me that I needed to start paying attention to this, they were trying to tell me something.  I read up in my Animal Speak book about this creature, but was not quite understanding how it could be relevant to my life.  It told me to also study the coocoo bird, which is a close relative, but still did not quite get what I was reading.  Then, on monday (two days ago), I re-read it all on our way into town.  I all of a sudden understood.  It was trying to get my attention about my dad.  It was all about seeing the universe on a deeper level, and to listen to what is not being said.  It also said that it most likely meant a life changing event was about to occur in your household, either a birth or death.  Now sometimes when you read these things before major events happen, its hard to quite comprehend who or what it is talking about, or if it is even real.  But upon looking back, I understood it all.  So now, this all brings us up to date to the events that happened yesterday.
First of all it poured down raining for about 1/2 an hour.  It has not rained here in so long.  I sat in my bay window with bella on my lap and we just watched the rain.  All I could think was that it was my mom weeping down on all of us and the earth.  It was beautiful but sad.  And I think it opened up my sensitivity to the natural world around me.

So then later in the day, I was sitting outside in my backyard, on the phone with my best friend.  I had told her about how Ive been seeing roadrunners everywhere.  As we were talking, I looked over and there was one in my garden, about 15 feet away from me.  I thought wow, that is the closest one has ever gotten, they usually dart away at the first sign of a person being there.  Then, he walked over to the bird bath that was literally 5 feet away from me.  He sat on that bird bath looking at me the whole time I was on the phone.  And I was talking loud and moving around the whole time.  He stayed there even after getting off the phone.  I kind of chuckled and looked at him and asked him if he was my daddy.  It just gave me a warm feeling that nature was speaking to me so loudly, especially by being so out of character for that creature.  He then ran away and hopped the fence and darted through the woods.

Then, a few hours later, James parents came over to our house.  They took us to run our errands and just be with us.  We were sitting at our dining room table and I looked outside the window and my backyard had tons of dragonflies flying around.  It instantly connected with me b/c I saw thousands of dragonflies not long after my mom died.  They have a deep meaning for me.  So I went outside to look at them and feel their presence.  I then realized, they were only in my backyard.  Not in my neighbors yard, not outside my fenced in area, just in my back yard.  I thought it was quite strange, but I just enjoyed seeing them and it felt like my mom was there big time.

Then, I came inside to tell his parents about it, and then I just was looking out the window at them.  Not a minute later, I look to my right and see two doves sitting on my fence together staring at me.  Once I recognized them, the cuddled, then walked along the fence side by side, and then flew off together.  I instantly knew they were telling me that my mom and dad were back together where they belonged and that they were okay.  

I know this probably sounds crazy to alot of people, but I was told that if my parents were going to visit me, it would be in a way that I would understand.  And I understand this world best through nature.  I am deeply connected to nature and the things in it, and I truly believe this was God's way of showing me their love.  And for it to happen right here in my new home, makes me feel so warm.  Like they are blanketing our house with their presence and love.  It was truly one of the most amazing experiences Ive ever had.  And although it does not take away the sadness of losing my daddy, it is helping me to understand the process of life and death, and to feel at peace with his soul being reunited with my moms.  Which is all he ever wanted.


  1. Beautiful post. Hug. I don't really know what else to say, but I want you to know you are thought of, and you don't sound crazy. For me, my father was a guitar player. He made some poor choices in his life. At his funeral, they played "it is well with my soul". Every once in a while, when things are hardest for me, usually around the anniversary of his death... that song will play and it will be very random, and I know it's God telling me that He is still there, even if daddy is gone :)

  2. This is beautiful. You're not crazy at all. I've had the same thing happen to me when my sister was killed... I started seeing bluebirds. After confessing the sudden rise of bluebirds in my life to an elder native american woman.. she told me that in her tribe bluebirds (and several other birds) are a sign of spiritual freedom.. She also told me that they were telling me "whoever I lost was okay in the after-life and were wanting me to accept that theyre gone." The woman had no clue that I had just lost my sister... I still see them on holidays or when times get tough. They bring such peace to my heart.

    I'm so glad nature has offered comforts to you too.

  3. Laura you are such a beautiful soul! There is no mistaking your connection to the spiritual world and nature. I am so sorry for your loss, but I am not suprised at all that you have found clarity, understanding, and peace in the midst of such loss. You are such a strong spirit, thank you for sharing and being you. Love and more love.

  4. Such beautiful words to explain a truly beautiful experience. I am so sorry for your loss(es) but I am so happy you were able to see through the bad. Some of us miss these moments at first only to realize them later on. Continue to remember as you continue on your own path of healing. There is so much love and warmth around you already but I'll be sure to send more.

  5. Laura,
    Again, I am so sorry for your loss. God is showing you that your parents are together and in a safer place watching over you. You are such a great person and understand that God will speak to you through nature. Such a beautiful thing. You are in my prayers.

  6. Laura,
    I do believe in things as thee way that you described it. That is exactly what happened...The universe was telling you that it will be ok and to try and make your peace. My dear friend had a similar experience with doves after her Mom and Dad had passed away. She still continues to see doves at unusual times and places and it has been over 10 years since her parents have passed. Remember that life and death is a full circle never ending. Your parents are now together in another realm of our universe. Yes you will grieve as this is natural but know that it is ok as you have seen these signs. You are very fortunate to have experienced the signs as not everyone is as in touch as you are with nature and the amazing universe.
    I send you healing prayers of love and peace and know that if you ever need or want to express anything, just message me.


  7. So glad to hear all of this, Laura. I totally believe that God sends you signs of peace through his creations after a loved one has died. I mean, the reminder, the memory, may be a little sad...but at the same time it is such a comfort to have their memory be so alive. lovelovelove.

  8. Oh my word! It was them! My dad's mom died when he was young and she visited him...so that he could be comforted. God is so good to us, knowing the times we need a boost to our faith, and giving us a tangible sign of comfort! I pray He continually sends you those profound moments to fill you with peace.

  9. I'm truly sorry that you are going through this, but what an experience to have! You know they are together and with you in spirit and proud of the beautiful soul that they created together.

  10. Not crazy at all Laura...some beautiful signs that all is going to be ok...nature is such a wonderful gift, isn't it...I am so glad that you have received such gifts during a difficult time. Sending much love, although I do not know you, I love your little blog, where your beautiful spirit shines through x

  11. This was beautiful, and so honest. Thank you for sharing these thoughts, you are truly a gifted writer.

  12. Absolutely beautiful and comforting Laura. I'm so glad you are able to find some peace knowing that they are still able to bestow wonderful memories with you. Sending you my love girl!

  13. Amazing words Laura. God works in the most mysterious ways, but is always with us. I'm glad that you can find beauty in the gifts that God gives us. You are not crazy at all - you are full of faith and belief. Never let that go. Sometimes my strong faith is the only thing that keeps me sane!!! Take care sweetheart. Though I don't know you -I do know that you have a beautiful soul.

  14. Dearest Laura,

    This is SO moving. My dad passed away one month ago due to a very aggressive cancer and has suffered much.
    When he was in hospital, doves were always sitting in front of his window. He would like to go outside in his wheelchair and give them little treats and chuckle when one male dove would try to seduce the female. It was really lovely to see him smile in such a hard time.
    A few days before his death a dove flew to my brothers house. (Doves have never been sitting on the windows there, so it was kind of a strange event) Also, a dove sat on the roof of our neighbors house and watched us for a few days.
    We knew, that maybe things were coming to an end.
    Later, after he passed away and we were off to manage our daily lives/work/etc, our neighbors told us, that the dove, which was sitting on their roof changed places and stayed on ours for several days...

    I can truly understand how you felt. I offer you my condolences.

    Many hugs from vienna,

  15. beautiful post.

    it rained here yesterday too, a soaking rain, not windy or anything. it hasn't rained like that in a LONG time. the first thing that came to mind was that it was for you. & it was. sometimes we have to just trust those 1st feelings or instincts & ignore what people will say to try to dismiss them. they just don't feel the environment as much as we do.

    hugs sweety!

  16. Wow, this was so powerful. So very amazing. I'm so glad you were able to find peace. Sending you lots of love!

  17. You're not crazy, not at all. This post is absolutely beautiful. I believe that things like this happen every day, in special moments that are meant to make us pay attention, and know we aren't alone.
    They're looking down on you...protecting you...and they want you to know that.

  18. i think when big things like this happen you become more connected or aware of what's around you (like nature) and life becomes quite stripped down to what is really important.
    when a good friend of mine died i felt like i had signs too... in dreams and also in everyday life - suddenly i started seeing her favourite flower everywhere.
    i hope you can find some comfort in these things. i hope that writing about it and the comments you have had will help you. with love and best wishes

  19. Hi Laura, i am glad you were able to disconnect from the technology, nothing feels better then being in our natural world and feeling the connection that we have with nature. I, too, believe the connection between dragonflies and birds with spirits. I am so happy to hear that they visited you and that you saw their message.

    Take care,


  20. This is beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss.

  21. What a beautiful post. It does not sound crazy to me at all and I'm happy for you that you could experience something like that.

  22. Ever since I read this the day you posted it... and I've seen a roadrunner, you have come to my mind and I've said a prayer for you. I see them often out here where I live so I've said a lot of prayers for you. I love how nature speaks to you! Thanks for sharing your tender heart.


Thank you so much for your sweet comments!