Because grocery shopping is a journey for us...

Today we had to break down and go to town to get some groceries.  Our poor fridge was getting very lonely.  It had been two weeks since we last went.  Since we were going to town and James had the day off, we went by to see my Nanna too.  I had the best moment, sitting in a rocker chair with her, with my head on her chest and she held me a rocked me.  It brought me right back to being a little girl and that comfort that only a grandmother can give you.  Gosh it was nice.  Just what I needed.  

We also stopped by Target to get some plastic boxes for our garage.  We have to start really organizing what was never unpacked and left in our garage so I can start thinking about bringing home things that are special to me from my parents home.  It will be a bittersweet process.  But we have a lot of work that needs to be done for preparation of this.  We are also trying to turn part of the garage into James jam/screenprinting room, and would like to actually include a sitting area for him and his friends.  So this is going to be tricky.  But we can do it!  And since we were at Target, we couldn't resist Starbuck's since its right inside.  I got a yummy raspberry vanilla iced latte (thanks to Elsie for introducing me), and James got a mocha frapp with coconut.  Is he not the most handsome man ever??? 

We came home, I made pesto chicken pasta and we watched Weird Science.  A pleasant day of things to keep up busy and distracted.  I think Im going to finish it off with a nice hot bath along with some yummy bath salt my bestie gave me.  I got three books (one suggested by one of my readers!) about dealing with losing both of your parents.  The one I was reading last night was talking about how important it is I take care of myself during these first weeks, as selfish as it may seem.  That there will be plenty of grieving throughout this process.  I had a really good cry on James shoulder before we fell asleep last night.  It hurt to cry, but it felt better once I did.  I actually haven't cried alot this last week.  I think Ive been more in a numb, almost denial state.  Im not sure.  I think about my dad every second of every day, no matter what Im doing.  But its like my body only allows me moments of overwhelming grief where I dont know what to do with myself.  The rest of the day, Im kind of just blank or lost, and just keep myself busy with things I have to do.  I have been reading and thinking alot in the mornings and evenings, so maybe that is helping me get through the rest of the day as far as processing it all.  Honestly, I really just dont know.  I cant believe its already been two weeks.  Life just keeps trucking along. 

On a completely different note, tomorrow I will be having 5 giveaways!  That's right, 5!!!  Keep checking back to enter them all!  I have some pretty generous sponsors this month!!! 



  1. I'm glad you had a good day. Nothing is better then being comforted by people you love. My prayers are with you. xoxo :)

  2. It sounds like you are doing a great job of handeling everything. It helps to keep busy & also pamper yourself. That's great that you have your Grandmother to comfort you & your sweetie too.

  3. 1. you're really gorgeous.
    2. pesto pasta chicken is the bomb!!
    3. sweet camera apps:)

  4. p.s. hugs and hugs and lots of love and prayers for you, dear. <3

  5. There's nothing like finally having a good day... so I hope there are more of them to come : )

  6. Oh, my friend. I just read all of your latest post in one sitting and let me tell you: that brings back bittersweet memories...

    Feel hugged! Stay strong and get well soon. You deserve to be happy!

    Lots of love! XO.

  7. Sounds like a lovely day, sobglad you are finding some positive forces lately. I wish you all the best in the world.

    By the way, husband and I also make pesto chicken pasta, one of my faves!

  8. I'm glad you had a good day Laura! :)

  9. After my brother died, there were days I felt exactly how you do now. There were days when I felt like it was just a bad dream that I would wake up from. And then there were times where all I could do was cry. Its really good to have someone close who understands your pain and can lend a shoulder. My hunny has seen me through all the bad times, and is working on making good memories- and James seems like a wonderful husband, so I'm sure he's doing the same for you.

    I hope you feel better soon. I know it takes time, and the pain never goes away completely. I think of you all the time and I'm sending you big hugs. You are an inspiration to me, and I know you'll make it through these tough times.

    Much love.

  10. hello dear. i just started reading your blog yesterday (i found it on Moorea's blog) & have been praying for you to be strengthened by our Father's peace that surpasses all understanding.

    we just lost my precious Grammie a few weeks ago to a mystery illness. she played a huge part in raising me. this was my first close loss, but the Lord has been such a great strength during this time. in reading your posts, i see similar ways He has been helping both of us, it's crazy.

    i was just wondering if you might be able to tell me what books you're reading about losing both parents? my mother has been having a very difficult time. her father took his own life about 15 years ago & now her sweet mother, her best friend, is suddenly no longer here either. i know she is healing with time, but perhaps she might find comfort in a book that will let her know that she's not alone.

    thank you so much, Laura. i'll keep praying for you <3 keep your head up, sweetheart. looking at the beautiful sky always helps.

    xoxo jamie


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