Today we had to break down and go to town to get some groceries. Our poor fridge was getting very lonely. It had been two weeks since we last went. Since we were going to town and James had the day off, we went by to see my Nanna too. I had the best moment, sitting in a rocker chair with her, with my head on her chest and she held me a rocked me. It brought me right back to being a little girl and that comfort that only a grandmother can give you. Gosh it was nice. Just what I needed.
We also stopped by Target to get some plastic boxes for our garage. We have to start really organizing what was never unpacked and left in our garage so I can start thinking about bringing home things that are special to me from my parents home. It will be a bittersweet process. But we have a lot of work that needs to be done for preparation of this. We are also trying to turn part of the garage into James jam/screenprinting room, and would like to actually include a sitting area for him and his friends. So this is going to be tricky. But we can do it! And since we were at Target, we couldn't resist Starbuck's since its right inside. I got a yummy raspberry vanilla iced latte (thanks to Elsie for introducing me), and James got a mocha frapp with coconut. Is he not the most handsome man ever???
We came home, I made pesto chicken pasta and we watched Weird Science. A pleasant day of things to keep up busy and distracted. I think Im going to finish it off with a nice hot bath along with some yummy bath salt my bestie gave me. I got three books (one suggested by one of my readers!) about dealing with losing both of your parents. The one I was reading last night was talking about how important it is I take care of myself during these first weeks, as selfish as it may seem. That there will be plenty of grieving throughout this process. I had a really good cry on James shoulder before we fell asleep last night. It hurt to cry, but it felt better once I did. I actually haven't cried alot this last week. I think Ive been more in a numb, almost denial state. Im not sure. I think about my dad every second of every day, no matter what Im doing. But its like my body only allows me moments of overwhelming grief where I dont know what to do with myself. The rest of the day, Im kind of just blank or lost, and just keep myself busy with things I have to do. I have been reading and thinking alot in the mornings and evenings, so maybe that is helping me get through the rest of the day as far as processing it all. Honestly, I really just dont know. I cant believe its already been two weeks. Life just keeps trucking along.
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