1.12.2011

Soul Work

{self portrait taken in 2008}

Tonite I just want to write.  I have been feeling full to the brim lately with emotions.  Of all kinds.  The holidays left me feeling blessed and renewed in so many ways, but also quite sad.  There are so many things I wish I could have changed that I just couldnt.  I missed my mom.  I missed both my brother and dad not being able to be a part of it this year.  I just felt a bit disconnected through it all.  But then there were things that sewed it all up together in the end.  I have friends and family that I wish so badly I knew how to help, and sometimes I just dont, and it burdens my heart.  I guess Ive just been feeling very distracted by feelings and emotions lately, that its been hard to focus.  Although today I got alot done.  Im not really sure, I feel the winds a blowing and the leaves a changing... In a way it feels like soul work is being done behinds the scenes of my skin, Im just not sure what it is yet.  I would like to make some resolutions with myself this year.  Not really goals, b/c there is no defining an end to these things, just more like soul work.  I would like learn forgiveness in a truer deeper way, for others and for myself.  I would like to learn more ways of trusting people and lending my heart out to them.  To let go and let God.  To dig deeper into my heart and feel and learn more about what I truly feel... about things, people, love, God, friends, etc... Basically, I am a passionate person by nature, but I want to be more passionate about what is real in my heart.  Sometimes I allow my business and daily life get in the way of it, and then it just floods in.  Its time for personal work to be on the forefront.  In relation to my spirit, my health, my activity and freedom, my heart and trust, and letting go.

For those of you who are new readers, Im not just teddy bear hats and outfit posts, that stuff is just fun... Im a real girl, with real emotions, and real learning to be done on this earth.

PEACE,
Laura

15 comments:

  1. I understand how you feel.
    The holidays brought up a lot of things too.
    But its a new year and time to change things for the better!

    I am a new follower here and have heard great things about your blog...I look forward to learning more about you as the real girl you are and not "teddy bear hats and outfit posts" :)

    -Gwen

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  2. Love this post.
    Thank you for being real...I think you have an amazingly beautiful spirit, take care of it :)
    xo, Jamie

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  3. I am a new reader, and although your teddy bear post was cute...I understand that you have real depth to your soul. I noticed you have a poetry link, and the artistry you show in your photography reveals that you see and feel more than what is on the surface. Your post rings true with the ways many people feel after holidays. After the presents are opened and removed, and that moment that you are standing around a lot of open wrappings feels an awful lot like the still that occurs after a big holiday. Thank you for sharing your deep thoughts and feelings, I always enjoy thoughtful and heartfelt posts...it makes me feel not so alone. Hearts, Janna Lynn

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  4. <3<3<3

    Your post rings so true... I think post holidays can leave us all feeling a little like that xxx

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  5. Laura,
    It's always important to stop and reflect. You can help loved ones and yourself simply by staying true to yourself and following your heart. You're doing an awesome job from what I can see ☺

    Angela

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  6. once you take care of you, the creative will follow because it comes from that tender soul place hidden within.

    blessings to you...

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  7. I love this post Laura...true, raw and honest! The holidays always bring up so many emotions for me as well, it seems I am a different person for a few weeks after they pass...a stronger person. Thank you for sharing. Take care!

    xoxo~Meg

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  8. Sending love and light your way <3

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  9. I can really appreciate what you are saying. I love pretty stuff too but I like to see some substance as well. Sometimes I wonder about blogs with all pretty stuff and no real content about who they are.

    Btw-you might enjoy reading some Wayne Dyer. His books go along with a lot of the inner work and "let go, let god" philosophy you are talking about.

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  10. sending lots of love and hugs Laura <3 I think maybe you should take one day a week to just relax, reflect and unwind... as much as we all love you, I think its sometimes best to take a break once in a while :). Hope all is well x

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  11. thanks girls... i used to blog alot more about real emotional stuff, if dig deep into the beginning you will find all kinds of it. then i started feeling like i was being a bit of a downer from time to time always talking about missing my mom and such. but ive gone a bit too far the other way and why i even started blogging, mostly for me. a record of daily happenings, and those emotional bits and peices are all a part of it. so now its time to find the balance. xoxo.

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  12. I would like to learn forgiveness in a deeper way as well.

    - Lauren

    Ladaisi Blog

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  13. Yay for real girls and keeping balance in blog AND life!
    Keep it up real girl!
    XO Jo

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  14. First of all, your self-portrait is beautiful! Also, it is so nice to read about the girl behind the blog and when they acknowledge that they're human-- thank you for sharing :)

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Thank you so much for your sweet comments!