To every season...

Life is so full of little twists and turns that we can never forsee.  I think these twists are not only necessary for our growth, but the unpredictability of life is what makes us be things we may not normally be, like brave.  If everything were laid out in front of us, we would have no reason to be brave in the unknown.  Or hopeful and full of faith.  There would be no place for these things if we knew all that would happen here on earth, or in the afterlife.  Im not really sure where Im going with this, just thinking out loud.  

Yesterday we had to go to my dad's house.  I thought I was fine, but the closer we got, the more unsettled I became.  Weve been out there several times, and Ive surprisingly been okay each time.  But this time I was getting so upset, I started arguing with James over stupid stuff.  We were both already in not so good moods, just not the best day for us... And by the time we pulled up to the house, I just lost it.  I walked way out into the woods to the spot I used to go sit when I was younger when I wanted to get away (or go sneak cigarettes).  It was comforting in a way to go back to that spot, but I got so full of anger for the fact that it was going to be ripped away from me soon.  We are going to have to sell the house, and as much as I agree with that decision, it is going to be so hard to finally let it go.  So much of my life exists out there, and each peace of that amazing property and house, was built by my dad, board by board, rock by rock.  It just floods me with anger to be left with these choices, and to be the one to have to deal with it all.  Not to mention, having to pay the bills that were left and the enormous land taxes on the property until it is sold.  Its all a bit overwhelming.  Things you dont expect to be taking care of until you are much older.  Sometimes I feel so ill-equipped to take of these things.  But fortunately, we have so many loving family and friends that are helping us.  This mountain seems so big to climb, but I guess we just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other, and eventually we will get there.

While I was sitting in the spot on the hill, with tears streaming down my face, I couldnt stop noticing this piece of driftwood.  It was so beautiful.  So I grabbed it when I decided I was ready to get up.  I huffed and puffed my way back to the house, and right in the middle of my pathway I found this mountain laurel seed, in a very unusual spot for one.  Right then, I knew it was my mom gently reminding me to calm down.  Just like my grandfather leaves us feathers, my mom leaves us mountain laurel seeds.  Its pretty amazing how finding these little trinkets at the right moment can really put some rest in your heart.  This earth is beautiful.  I wish so badly that everyone knew how beautiful this earth is.  It really is sacred.  I think I am going to use this lovely piece of driftwood and a jewelry holder.

I have a busy busy week.  I think Ive actually got my boy roped into helping me out today with a big order I have.  And, dont forget, only a few days left to get your spot for September Sponsorship on the blog!  And, pop on over to Maie Dae's blog to enter her giveaway to win a pair of my Roots and Feathers earrings, along with 3 other prizes!



  1. sweet laura, this made me cry. i ache with your aching. i'm so sorry you have to go through this. it isn't right or fair. i wish i had the money to buy the house and you could come over whenever you wanted.

    what a lovely piece of driftwood! perfectly weathered and ancient, part of the earth like all of us. love to you.

  2. Laura, this post made me feel very peaceful. I sent you a package earlier today, then read this post. The package I sent you involves driftwood and found feathers.. I'm very excited for you to receive it now. :) much love to you xoxo

  3. Thinking about you dear girl...These wonderful finds are truly precious gifts! Hope you have a good week!

  4. You really are a beautiful soul, and a beautiful woman. Don't you love the signs that those we love leave us? You'll get through all of this. You're also a strong soul.

  5. Hi there! I am sorry to hear that the day was a tough one. What a beautiful piece of drift wood you found or shall I say left for you, like the laurel seed. How amazing. I love being alone in the woods, listening, smelling, seeing, its lie a magical place.

    And another amazing thing is James. It so wonderful you have a partner in life with you on this journey, comforting you, caring for you and being the best team mate.

    Take care!


  6. i read your blog regularly laura, but rarely comment. this one struck me particularly deep. i lost my dad as well, and recently a best friend. it is so comforting to hold on to the idea that perhaps our loved ones whom have left the planet really are leaving little tokens of love for us to find and follow. i think you are very brave to share these process moments. Keep on keeping on- you are a shining star.

  7. I'm sorry about all the burdens you have to bear. You are in my thoughts as always.

  8. Love you laura. the seasons of life, the ups and downs are so hard. and I feel you deeply in this hurt. i'm thinking sweet thoughts for you and praying that your loved ones who are now gone from the earth still keep on leaving reminds of themselves for you wherever you go.
    love, Moorea


Thank you so much for your sweet comments!