Dear Mom,
Happy birthday! You would be turning 57 today. Can you believe your baby girl is going to turn the big 30 in less than two weeks? It will be my first birthday without both you and dad. Dont worry, Ill surround myself with some good souls. You taught the value in good friends, and Ive made a few. I spent the morning sitting by the window, working on a special custom order gypsy flag while listening to Joni Mitchell. Just about the best way I can honor you I think. Im about to make a cheesecake too. Although really, thats just for me since I was always the one that wanted cheesecake for my birthday. Your favorite was carrot cake, so for lazyness sake, I think Ill stick with the cheesecake. ...Its hard not to think of you and wish wish wish. Wish you could see my house, and all my creations, and what a beautiful man my husband has become, and all the ways Ive grown up these past 4 years... etc etc. That feeling will never go away. I guess my biggest wish is to know that you and dad are somewhere celebrating together this wonderful day that you came onto the earth. I love you to the moon and beyond, farther than reality can conceive.
Love,
Laura Lou
tears and so much love. xo.
ReplyDeleteHug... birthdays are so hard. You just made me miss my daddy more. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteglorious letter in honor of your dear mama. with love. :)
ReplyDeleteI can't stop crying, I read this damn post 4 times and I still feel that I can do more... Be strong honey, it's the only thing we , who are left behind can do with such things.
ReplyDeleteYour mama is smiling so big over this letter. I am so sure she would be beyond proud of what you've made of yourself in your near 30 years. Have a piece of cheesecake for her too. ;)
ReplyDeleteyou and your mama are in my heart today, lady. lovelove you. xo.
ReplyDeleteThis really touched me. Your are such a loving daughter. Your mother is smiling down on you now and always.
ReplyDeleteAmanda Rose
http://sewmuchtosay.blogspot.com
so completely beautiful. you were very obviously raised by amazing human beings and became an amazing human being yourself--I of course don't know you or your folks personally, only from your blog, but I feel they are smilin quite, quite proudly upon you : )
ReplyDeleteThis post was very moving. Perhaps because I can identify very well. The music of Joni Mitchell is a magical mother/daughter bond to have. I'm sure she'd be proud of who you've become.
ReplyDeleteTears and hugs. <3
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ReplyDeleteoh, my heart. so much love sent your way today.
ReplyDeleteThis made me cry. I have no doubt that your beautiful mama is watching over you, and beaming with pride on her birthday at all you've become. Sending so much love to you sweet friend.
ReplyDeleteLove this post.
ReplyDeleteHugs<3 Rachel
{{{hugs}}} <3<3<3
ReplyDeletesending the best of vibes your way today. that was beautiful & if it's as pretty out in tx as ny, go outside, close your eyes and let the sun envelop you in the warmth of your mom's love (that's how i deal, anyway)
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"laurie lou" to my 'rents
(a fellow cancer baby)
Such a beautiful letter, Laura. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteCatherine Denton
i echo what so many have already said. you are a beautiful person & i'm certain your mom is incredibly proud of all that you have become. <3
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful soul you are... sending you much love
ReplyDeleteThis was beautiful and sad. I know this comment is quite late, but I didn't have a computer for a while. But what struck me the most is how similar our moms' nicknames for us are. Mine calls me Laurel Lou, and as a result I only managed to keep it together until I got to the part you signed off on your note. wishing you belated strength and love. It's a pleasure following your blog.
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